How's It Going to Be?

Battles won;
battles lost.
All the anger & truancies beneath the surface;
they must come out.
When will you tell me how it's going to be?
When you do tell me,
please have the courtesy to say it to my face,
and not over the phone.
I see how easy it is for you to drop me..
..drop me like a lead weight.
It's probably best, though..
..because we'll be on two different continents.
Was I devastated from your call..
..on that stormy summer night?
No; I was more hurt than anything.
It didn't surprise me so much, though.
I knew it was coming, but why now?
I leave for my trip in three weeks for Norway.
Why?